Raspberrysoda's fanfics and musings

  Personally, I prefer the soundtrack of the one on tubi, but this is okay too. Tubi is a free streaming service that has tons of classic movies.  Nosferatu is easily one of my all time favorite movies. There is just something about this movie I love-the horror, atmosphere, sense of uneasiness, and just the mystery of it all. With the film being as old as it is, there is something almost surreal about it. Almost like a vampire itself when compared to the behind scenes stuff of modern movies. I just love this film and have watched it multiple times. I'm a fan of classic movies. I have recently gotten into silent films which are big on tubi. They have a great (1925) Phantom Of The Opera that is partly colorized and has it's own soundtrack which I also love. I just love epic silent movies with great soundtracks-especially silent gothic and horror films. The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari is also another that left an impression. I just feel that silent horror films have their own unique ...

I feel guilt for not writing, but things haven't been good for me mentally between my dad's passing, and just issues with stress from other factors in real life, and anxiety in general. My anxiety has been through the roof lately. I've been overeating, oversleeping, unmotivated, and unable to even enjoy my hobbies like writing or reading.  I just go to work and then go home and lie around and do nothing. I tend to be a person that thrives on being busy and active, so that's very unusual for me. People in my life have been concerned over me. So, I guess I have strong depression along with anxiety. I go see the doctor this week, I'll be honest with what's been going on. I hate to say it, but I might need a medication change. I'm not handing my depression and anxiety well at all. I miss my dad.